dresden plates

going deaf but really going blind

2011-10-19T19:13:00.000-07:00

a black, black void as black as night top ten:

1. "...Do you really want to live in the same room with anyone?"
2. welcome to planet m.f.
3. broken wire magazine voice-mail reviews//tears will stream
4. oh, well, i would occupy wall street but i keep running into these ghosts i know
5. ever heard the one about the guy & his two cacti?
6. psychick video-on-demand
7. jerry misses you, too. (but i tell everyone it isn't true)
8. practical garbage in my shrine
9. terrible distance as symptom of phobic flight
10. AKA 2 close 2 touch

that thunderclap ov thrill brings no lightning strike ov lucidity.

as the blood drains from yr face

2011-06-01T03:48:00.000-07:00

'i thought i just had a stomach ache' top ten:

1. digital sigil distracts from the poison i swallowed
2. reflexive gnosis; the light clicks off behind yr eyes
3. i love you, i'm sorry, i did not sign up for a long distance relationship
4. table at mcdonald's for one, plz
5. almost 2 years & it still kills, i mean aches, i mean hurts, i mean its okay forget it
6. saline solution dripz from my third eye
7. acquiescing to obsolescence//embracing invisibility
8. walt whitman bled into the leaves ov grass
9. iknowiamluckyiknowiamluckyiknowiamlucky( x 23 )
10.the dream where the wolf drowned the bear and that is it that is all

'finality is reached when ye have learned to digest everything.'

been down & gone so long

2011-04-25T04:29:00.000-07:00

being chased over relative fields ov time & space top ten:

1. baddest bytch syndrome (ew to death)
2. seeping, creeping loser lifestyle
3. forgot to do my sigils & ye came right back
4. pisces paranoia
5. twin bed anxiety; don't cut off yr arm, i'll cut off my limbs
6. california grrlfriend (see also: CALIFORNIA, grrlfriend!)
7. dear carnegie hall/ love, liza minelli
8. phussy palace
9. nuthing but an accessory, datz me (studded bracelet personality)
10. "i got a new diet. bread & candy, no water."

everything is so kewl that it's kind of twzted that it's sort ov scary that it's definitely creepy that it's really dismal.

caffeine & ON DEMAND

2010-12-29T01:53:00.000-08:00

"you look like you shop at the gap" top ten:

1. private life by oingo boingo(THAT IS OUR SONG)
2. ASSMAN
3. the things said in between the wii & glee
4. the son of clam
5. tapping you on the shoulder
6. attention soaked//still thirsty
7. caravan of my dreamz
8. how to make a bed
9. IMDbaby
10. 'we cannot even sleep/we just wake up/nothing is always something'

between all the euphemisms, the sentiment is too true xo

I GAVE MY ALL

2010-12-18T12:34:00.000-08:00

truly it is about a lot of different things top ten:

1.“i love that tattoo on your hand. you look so beautiful. you have a sexy body.“
2. pinky ring under the work bench//things one could search for except for that i cannot
3. EHHHMMMMM EWWWWWW. YR REEKING, KID.
4. oh no air signs
5. okay, can i tell you all that the rose quartz works!
6. double ride mtn bike fixed gear high heeled wytch bootz
7. voracious appetites leading the way
8. infinite alterity//infintesimal alterations uv state
9. missing sleeping with a what-are-you-six
10. say say buh bye say say buh bye

i do not have the technology to find yr particles of dilaton anymore.

well, funk fug fuck

2010-11-29T17:09:00.000-08:00

WARNING, not a top ten//untraditional post:

I am in Europe (Rome precisely). Last nite my bike was stolen out of my house.
It is (as many 'readers' know) a red 48 cm SOMEC with riser bars, Chris King headset, Campagnolo cranks, chrome Mavic rims, and some stupid yellow fancy seat.
More than all of that it was a mythical transportation unit that made me extremely happy. It feels better to ride than anything else I have ever known and I love it like a stupid consumerist freak. Look out for it, let me know. Tell your friends to look out for it. I will definitely pay a $$$$$ reward for it's return. To come: top ten about all of the worldly goods I have lost permanently or temporarily on this trip. Maybe instead of a trip to Europe; I need 2 get off the planet.
http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_nmQvQIiLNQs/SlQPyqNMkFI/AAAAAAAAA3k/WeNtVi7xbjI/s1600-h/bikes+001.jpg

i hope yr listening.

2010-10-25T13:35:00.000-07:00

completely positive things about ten different people top ten:

1. store-front daydreams: yr growing up so right, alright?
2. mystical pop star paparazzi: tapping into my digi-vid spirituality
3. sacred departure festivus planner: vert's keeping me safe, hope yee can transcend my 'net negativity && pick up my astral warmth
4. wyz womyn of y'urp: ye'll truly never walk alone again//ying yang guitar strap symbolism
5. young jerry seinfeld: saving up a million jokes to tell yi upon my return
6. photographic muse trying 2 get east: constantly inspired, excited to witness yr symmetrical year
7. leather daddy old lady: wild island brave-womyn "I AM SO PROUD"
8. hotmail rail king: don't know how else 2 tell yi that yr v v vig important 2 me
9. 'class'ic 'instrument'ation: subconscious epistemological roller coaster ride starring you//soo much too much 2 say
10.tiny sacred chip: sell the slap, yr needed on another continent & NOW

an end to the obtuse!TW-S, AF, KMjr, JG, PC, CB, JP, VS, CA, KP: i care a lot all the time and for all time!

TASTE THE CONTINENT

2010-10-18T17:45:00.000-07:00

meggie's dream dinner depiction top ten:

1. swiss cheese in switzerland
2. chocolate in berlin
3. crepes in paris
4. pizzas on the piazza
5. turkey in turkey
6. cadbury eggs in london
7. danish in denmark
8. swedish fish in stockholm
9. hamburger(bliss) in hamburg
10. bread crust && water in sparta

'HAD A FUNKY DREAM ABOUT PIZZA BUT I AM STILL HUNGRY.'

obviously out of context

2010-10-12T10:51:00.000-07:00

why be warm when it is easier to be cold? top ten:

1. 'IS EVERYONE HAVING FUN TONITE?'
2. hand, foot, & mouth deja vu
3. my head at the foot of yr bed
4. hey, you, yes, you, i am trying to not quote you this 'ten' around
5. samuel delaney and the great escapes
6. libra descending
7. more than just eating meals together
8. omens at bedford & halsey
9. the idea of anyone having sex with me is ridiculous.
10. fugging crunchy frumpy skuzzard shig bag lyfe//cannot scrub hard enough

holding yi with mi for what seems like forever, but still always all alone.

GO TELL THE BEES

2010-09-20T17:14:00.000-07:00

new pool isn't as fresh as we hoped top ten:

1. saves the day youtube playlist? yes, and really
2. my grrl walking death
3. helmsley's time tunnel(she left all of her $$$ to cats)
4. 'txting-in' my affection
5. A PERMANENT RESIDENT
6. listless lethargy
7. are you downloading him?
8. ant pupae consumption; "i'll try any antidote."
9. how special is his silly hood?
10. blame it on borderline personality disorder

just lying in bed begging the cone of obliscence to be real.

vehemently haunted

2010-09-10T13:55:00.000-07:00

moving on so long later top ten:

1. casual stories about you
2. perpetual cellular silence
3. "i guess i'll either get over it or i'll kill myself."
4. the gift of agent cooper
5. wuthering heights revisionist history
6. i just
7. want you
8. to know
9. i am
10. still sad.

the next time will be the last time we have to talk about it.

'is it for me or about me?'

2010-09-01T23:57:00.000-07:00

DIRT THE FILM top ten:

1. 2 be real, i could've died
2. 2 be real, wish i hadn't dyed
3. life as a litterbox (*'will he be my litterbox boy?')
4. ten hours in reykjavik
5. i'm going to be drooling on yr shoulder, ma!
6. 'can you drink for free because you made out with him or something?'
7. WE WILL PRBLY BE ARGUING FOR A LONG TIME. (prophetic textual visions)
8. polyester sateen sheets/vs/400 cat fur count sheets
9. he chose jimi over jerry & i just knew
10. I am busy fucking and also being wasted!!

each time i believe yr not beautiful, you just radiate beneath the sulfur light.

still in love with everyone i ever loved

2010-08-31T13:11:00.000-07:00

farce & circumstance top ten:

1. MY MOM IS SO SECOND WAVE
2. middle class rites of winter (yea, well, we're going to europe)
3. don't want yr forest// don't want yr field recordings
4. drnk dial
5. natural blonde ambition
6. 'they smell blood in the water.'
7. huggy bear dance party by yrself for yrself
8. reaching clumsy skate nirvana
9. cold jungle in the 90210 desert
10. i'll wear my bong if you promise 2 smeek it

burying totems deep for the magick of the 'ethnic-white' boi.

CLEAN UP CRU

2010-08-06T13:13:00.000-07:00

not that it matters, but i am on sabbatical until my imagination becomes less inflamed.

plz don't be embarrassed.

2010-07-20T12:29:00.000-07:00

obsessed with a. geoffrey frank top ten:

1. Dude i wanna readcatcher in the ryeagain.
2. phone stutter
3. 'i think i am going to start wearing birkenstocks.'
4. shotgun phallus exploration of rural pennsylvania
5. pro-gluten community organizer
6. heating up yr personal brand
7. teen vogue's G(ay)B(oy)F(riend); lucky grrl
8. staten island tourist//anthropological trekking
9. anne beattie psychic connection
10. five star ***** feminist, boi crust fetishist

so, like, and, okay, i will only tell you this once, yr the illest.

I COULD GO ON

2010-07-02T07:11:00.000-07:00

woke up missing julia top ten:

1. frumpiest creepiest freakiest crunchiest mami
2. YO, EHM.
3. 'dogs are weird, they're not like cats.'
4. a move back east to be yr queen
5. 2008 myspace lurking(secretz out)
6. uncontrollable cellular happy hysteria
7. 'but he will have to wear heels to be me?'
8. empathetic darkness in slop, sludge, tears & trucks
9. pre- and post-conscious hand holding
10. reaching towards yr cabin window & proudly calling yr name

light && wonder && greatness radiate from you, we all hope you know and, also, understand. {xoxo}

two-dimensional projection of completely visceral luv by vincent victor royale

dream city dream machine

2010-06-30T14:05:00.000-07:00

schools of impractical philosophy top ten:

1. inauthentic creepers & a dickies jumpsuit
2. the- anticlimactic -dream
3. ee zee pass//gateway to the triangular cities
4. summer stunner
5. my religion, see also: hydration vacation
6. 'i was really hoping secret boyfriend was a good guy.'
7. ARE YOU GOING 2 CBGB'S?
8. i will never wash these sheets again
9. heard yr band iz part of The Arcades Project
10.cost-benefit analysis of aversion

you never understood the way my finished works weighed lighter.

sell me yr personal brand

2010-06-27T22:12:00.000-07:00

MY NEW FRIEND top ten:

1. * ***** **** *** ******* **** {internet hype band}-->
2. -->and all i got was this lousy mass txt
3. going to spa castle to drown
4. *****five star bytch*****
5. ontological mulligan
6. I AM SORRY, HAZEL
7. catalyst for being reminded
8. curate my face
9. 'hey, i am breaking up with my girlfriend tomorrow.'
10. amicability as physical euphemism

share more ideas about disposal here.

(DISCREET SELF-CENSORSHIP, just in case.)

will we grow?

2010-06-20T21:55:00.000-07:00

responsible vs. irresponsible top ten:

1. big and tru luv to ck && gcrg
2. shit-eating grin
3. (FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU, SELFISH FUCK) obliteration
4. which dad's grateful dead t-shirt?
5. union of townes
6. mami's first bachelor pad
7. a break(forever) to make yrself a human
8. 'i really enjoy luxury services.'
9. which best friend likes me best?
10. v v truly happier without you, sayne

what would we feel like if we stopped feeling bad?

freak-hole

2010-06-03T02:23:00.000-07:00

(but, like, srsly, happy memorial day) top ten:

1. ubiquitous one-hitter
2. 'emily stebbins, i spent my last ten dollars on beer so that i could compete.'
3. secret & not-so-secret peacing
4. I LOVE YOU OR W/E.
5. plural marriage {see also: crip tripping}*
6. *what up, butt slug
7. gin blossoms by the bathroom
8. higher innocence//beyond the greatest lakes
9. goth summer combo pak
10. a week of very very new connections

still waiting for yr future birthday gift forever

socio-psycho-geographical hierarchy

2010-05-12T13:17:00.000-07:00

'biggest cities in america' top ten:

1. buffalo, ny
2. brooklyn, ny
3. seattle, wa
4. niagara falls, ny
5. los angeles, ca
6. greensboro, nc
7. 'long island', ny
8. santa fe, nm
9. highland mills, ny
10. port townsend, wa

weighted populations in ways i cannot begin to describe.

'i am more than sure i like that even less.'

2010-04-09T17:42:00.000-07:00

all-need-is-solidarity top ten:

1. "i think i am going to start a graffiti career under the moniker Tony Bourdain."
2. choosing to let yr phone not work
3. exxon gas card, well, okay, yes we can go anywhere.
4. the weight of hermetically infused words//language tonic
5. just take my words right out of my mouth --->
6. ---> i guess i made them for you anyway
7. '"The dishes can wait," he said.'
8. frmr punk now cool guy tally (should it/could it be a blog?)
9. date to the golden road of ultimate devotion w/o a date
10. 'i hope it's cold enough to wear my leather jacket. seriously.'

PERFORMANCE. is that something that intrigues you?

soaking in townes

2010-03-30T18:17:00.000-07:00

'what will make you feel more bleak?' top ten:
1. won't you lend yr lungs to me, mine are collapsing
2. close yr eyes, i'll be here in the morning
3. 'what is it like, you know, what is it like to live with him?'
4. won't you come and get me when yr sure that you don't need me
5. then i will stand outside yr window and proudly call yr name
6. 'i drink so much because i am thirsty.'
7. i'd swim the seas for to ease your pain
8. it's plain to see the sun won't shine today
9. but i ain't in the mood for sunshine anyway
10. 'well i don't think that you can ever do your best. doing your best is a process of trying to do yr best.'

how long will he be crawling?

genuflecting on the periphery

2010-03-20T08:34:00.000-07:00

letters never sent top ten:

1. mislead lifestyle politick (alpha male fetish)
2. bowing at yr stony altar (years of the less than platonic)
3. poisoned omission (hierarchical affection and also, 'sex')
4. brand-new-life//not a 'cunt' (colors never seen before and forever)
5. systematic hatred performed ('i love you, grrl, srsly')
6. bloodied teen beat (just a phase as a rule)
7. to whom it may concern ('my favorite storytellers are liars')
8. squelched leo rising (wanting, never expecting, never expected)
9. frontal lobe game theory (shared pane of plexiglass)
10. domesticated futures (lost things never trained)

degenerative couching as a communication style, yes, and, okay.

do you remember this summer?

2010-02-17T22:53:00.000-08:00

re-establishing yrself(myself) in the city top ten:

1. kramer lifestyles
2. early breakfast with a BFF
3. victory royale & jay-gee infinitely
4. a simulacrum of hanging-out
5. value creation and bankruptcy
6. bare mud walls
7. 'i miss hanging out with you'-as public act
8. hash dorm
9. deleting yr number
10. dread-death transcendence

well, i guess you'll bleed me dry anyway.

bad luck rising

2010-01-24T08:41:00.000-08:00

arterial expulsion top ten:

1. obsessing over september
2. perpetual motion of letting-go
3. 'everyone is better when yr around.'
4. coastal ear bleeding
5. zodiac cosmic sounds
6. the sheets that make yr room
7. departed antler of the smokey mountains
8. 'know that i care about you in a way that is not hallucinatory.'
9. and i will never wash these hands again
10. nauseous to look at you/think of you/stand next to you

maybe you should never sit in my car again.

three more daze

2009-12-28T15:08:00.000-08:00

purgatory comes to a close top ten:

1. a thousand broken watches
2. receipts from when i spent too much
3. not-very-well-taken-care-of
4. boxes never unpacked
5. 'things i may never use again'
6. dorm furniture
7. not my bed
8. found in the garbage, grabbed from the trash
9. the stains from when my brain imploded
10. barely living, barely lived here, barely livid

just passing through on my way to the great 'somewhere else'.

i'm finding it hard to believe

2009-12-24T00:36:00.000-08:00

JEN NUGENT IS GETTING MARRIED top ten:

1. when we were eighteen, where did you get that bottle of rum?
1½. no shoes running from the bowery, congee-village plz
2. dye my hair, bleach my hair
3. 'its 14 degrees outside! i want to die!'
4. loeb hall, gore-see//moon deck, henni's dates
5. casual time in sarasota, florida
6. zombie face paint & bowls of fake blood
7. i am sorry i am not the friend to you that you have been to me
8. caught talking shit in the mckibben lofts, post-grasshoppers
9. asleep in yr bed at 1030pm, new years eve
10. {(['i'm taking soup to a friend, i promise i'll see you at BKF!'])}

the hardest walk you could ever take is the walk you take from a to b to c.

something nervously different

2009-12-21T00:08:00.000-08:00

'checking out'

it's a mess that never goes away,
growing in all directions.
north, south, east, west.
towards the sky and down below the floor,
below the ground.

i stare into my boxes
they seem watery and slurred.
it couldn't be true -
(no, not, not ever) a trick.
illusory; gases bending in rising heat

there's no necessity, only ephemera.
conversations never finished
piled high atop
pieces of lost things and
useless bits atavistically found, forgotten.

and i am sorry. i'm sorry.
'i am so sorry.'
pockets filled with my hair, my skin
and yours. ritualistic emptying.
but i remain inundated, weighed down.

'this is just the way you live and choose to be.'

tight look

2009-12-18T14:17:00.000-08:00

clothes for the cold top ten:

1. high waisted wooly
2. never wear pants again
3. worn in worn out worn ragged run me ragged
4. 'her body looks slamming'
5. one step closer to gaga(i'm sorry, so sorry)
6. 'i get what yr doing, trying to be a druid'
7. LEATHERfurLEATHER
8. fetish gear appropriation
9. the spirit of seventy-seven pants
10. gcrg//inspired by yr chelsea

plunge into the depths of the most cavernous darkness.

BGST BLLER

2009-12-14T21:49:00.000-08:00

couches in los angeles top ten:

1. kush doctor
2. LA LYFESTYLE 2 CRAZY
3. american trailer park
4. 'it could've been jay-z. he had a real nice car.'
5. wine cooler//no oven
6. 'i got to go back stage at the slightly stoopid show!'
7. let me see yr weird face
8. about the journey; whether you like it or you don't
9. television inside the box && outside of the box
10. the freakiest sup

lunar basalt resin hits have hermetic power at the palace uv dave&rob, oh-for-sure.

OG FREAXX

2009-12-05T17:10:00.000-08:00

living and dying at yr altar top ten:

1. poser fetish
2. no neck blues band//face down on the floor
3. srsly, where is don?
4. voice of a revenant
5. pentacle pizza
6. bad starz: raining in los angeles
7. 'do you know much about magick?'
8. teen rush//let me pierce yr navel next
9. acid grotto, see also: holy mary sighting
10. goth autumn gets darker each equinox

with gaga as my witness, it will be an erumpent nu-year.

'superbabe'

2009-11-28T13:26:00.000-08:00

i-swear-i-don't-care-where-you-put-yr-mouth top ten:

1. what does a nervous breakdown mean to you?
2. out of sight, out of my mind
3. he was conceived under mr. yuck
4. ordo templi orientis, what's the difference?
5. needless, heedless; sweating next to you
6. going back for the same reasons one went forward
7. 'i guess i like sad songs, they make me lie on the floor.'
8. close to you like water & the leaking basement walls
9. believe in emotional post-scarcity!
10. 'the worst of new york is everything is stacked...'

return to the world where cats are people, or stay where people are cats?

'are you camping on yr blog?'

2009-11-21T16:09:00.000-08:00

very recent 'notable-quotables' top ten:

1. 'i just want to be one of the skulls on brion gysin's shoulders.' -young wil adams
2. 'the worst part about him; he's a jazz guy.' -rachelle tews
3. 'there are legit-ass NYHC dudes here.' - adam whites
4. [on lap dances] 'well, i think that might be the weirdest thing i have ever heard.' -carrie schaff
5. 'does he know that your vagina looks like an all-seeing eye?' - carrie schaff
6. 'usually i don't have stage stories, but today i had to cut a middle-schooler out of a locker.' -robin stein
7. 'we met in a bathhouse, at the glory hole. i was fifth in line.' -butch richardson
8. '...and then i shared a joint with grace slick.' - david stebbins
9. [on his future sister-in-law] 'she told me that she heard i was gay. she told me that she thought that was really wild.' -matt lifson
10.[on writing lyrics] 'video games really help. i'm not saying i'm the next walt whitman.' -morgan henderson

atavistically manifesting all that is bleak, but there is luminance, undeniably.

short hands

2009-11-03T16:28:00.000-08:00

endless after hours top ten:

1. how many burritos?
2. weekend getaways are in yr budget
3. losing sight of our txt morphology
4. pragmatic pain dispersion
5. casual causality; see also: 'why does it have to be all or nothing?'
6. it is not you, it is me.
7. practical application of the solar anus
8. 'make my skin into drumheads for the bohemian cause.'
9. the discussion never ended for me or me or me(or me)
10. the content of one's days is contentious during a countdown

are you proud of an army? who will you tell?

L T R

2009-10-22T12:41:00.000-07:00

love is luv is lovely top ten:

1. terianthropic confusion
2. shirking all responses and responsibilities
3. 'i wish i could turn my head upside down.'
4. just throw it in the bag; winona as hedy as mantra
5. rupert's funding the coming insurrection
6. windsurfing on erie lake
7. david crosby, let me find you.
8. 'can i hear yr om?'
9. girl talk 4ever
10. even cat's deserve a bank account

when the libertarian revolution happens, i won't be caught dead in anything but black.

global storm peace king

2009-08-05T21:19:00.000-07:00

ultimate freakiness top ten:
1. 'how are you so rad?'
2. disassemble before the foundation hardens (aka burnitdownrebuild.net)
3.in the pool with or without you
4. millions of dead cats
5. care when i do/don't when i care
6. never rushing, never rush me
7. monopoly on violence
8. the uselessness of pleasure
9. two days a week
10. pizzahead; 'all i wanna doooooo is lay in the sun'

i want to listen to you without the subconscious noise in the background of my mind's ear.

sweet bean.

2009-06-13T17:45:00.000-07:00

two months are not what they seem top ten-
1. is it like breaking up or is it simple redefinition?
2. does simple redefinition exist?
3. "i want to see your face."
4. an archaeology of fallen sentiment
5. to take part in the sixth extinction, blessed be
6. secret votives, superstition
7. dress it up in white//take it out on the town
8. the science of inaccessibility
9. repackage and reconstitute a new life of maternalism!
10. the possibilities of making it out of community based academia, ever slim & slimmer

the way that anxiety crawls up your throat, the way it sits in the back of your mouth.

tangentially.

2009-05-17T20:53:00.000-07:00

why is lapham's quarterly so tight?

seriously, the best twenty dollars i've spent all 'quarter'.
the most recent issue is crime & punishment. look into it.

antithetically monastic.

2009-05-17T19:46:00.001-07:00

subtextual contextual top ten:

1. womyn learning how to organize
2. how did you find a psychobilly girlfriend?
3. the books i've never read
4. holding on to you for the books you may have never read
5. a twenty eight hundred mile river that can't be forded
6. you have to take your boots off once a day
7. words can be your cult of youth
8. fuliginous attitude//spirit made decrepit
9. only fantasy will calm her down
10. the nest is impossible to disassemble

'who do you think i am? but, who do you really think i am?'

wanton wanting.

2009-04-17T15:32:00.000-07:00

disparate-words top ten:
1. fibrous hypernova
2. having fun with ____
3. patterned feathers in a pattern
4. unity blake gone before she arrived
5. if it snows in north bend
6. pull up yr feet
7. atrophied brain wave
8. which muscle isn't an organ?
9. shuffle && walk away
10. nine steps for each single one

the surge only downgrades the upswing.

i am that. it is me.

2009-03-11T10:07:00.000-07:00

falling face first into lookbook top ten:
1. time is as much as the language applied
2. "you don't understand that humanity isn't sustainable."
3. bathing in distraction
4. fold your clothes carefully, jump away
5. what is the difference between different?
6. four saints in three acts
7. noted for an inventive use of cellophane
8. the nuclear winter is the coldest we've seen in years
9. dusted with loose tobacco
10. split open//carefully look inside

last night, i dreamt about letting all the ugliness bubble over into the light.

freak pride

2009-03-10T13:42:00.000-07:00

scratching the center of my back top ten:
1. boys gone down the hill
2. test is a word, nature is a word
3. yourself as character in story of the eye
4. tipping the velvet
5. "i've never seen you in a band t-shirt."
6. rough sea of indoor/outdoor carpet and wasted money
7. forced to move to new york
8. life seen through a toaster
9. rest yr head on the door jam
10. extricate body from train tracks

one part hedonism, two parts malaise, then set to boil.

not enough time to tell you how i feel

2009-02-25T10:50:00.001-08:00

in ten minutes i need to have been somewhere ten minutes ago top ten:
1. sans-serif//too much yellow
2. publicized burning man psyche
3. caloric meltdown
4. trapped in checks
5. hope for the barter system
6. "get you on the front of king magazine"
7. putting on blinders//facilitated emotional amnesia
8. you were made from dust, and to post-vape you shall return
9. wasted potential, wasted life, get wasted
10. "i dated _________ for longer than you've stayed in one college."

i could be her for you and you and you and you but not necessarily only you.

let it not be true

2009-02-17T13:52:00.000-08:00

hear it snap as you bury it deep top ten:

1. i can read to you

2. new nu-language

3. hand over the reigns

4. our relationship has grown ten-fold(on the web)

5. what makes what makes it real to be real?

6. square honky, uptight square

7. sitting silent at the altar of george herriman

8. no identification//no self

9. a house made of the things you never use

10. he is lost in the tar pits

(11. do you think it's weird when i look at you strangely out of the corner of my eye?)

the first hints of other-ache seem sharper every time.

green rebelrevolutionaries

2009-02-12T13:42:00.000-08:00

time acceleration keeps shaking me awake top ten:

1. mexico city is running out of water, running dry

2. move to a town that is lower middle class

3. maca magick will perfect mental ascension

4. you were smoking in the dark

5. king brisket/daddy prune

6. how did it feel to catch a swordfish, ernest?

7. space alien grunge punk

8. grand trine save the way my teeth fit in my head

9. poisoning lack of asceticism

10. two heads of one charley(manson)

suffocating inside poorly boiled roots and dutty wine.

evaluate my excitement

2009-02-10T12:54:00.000-08:00

retrospective hindsight highlife top ten:

1. "let's burn our records and listen to current93."

2. boom noodle bro

3. coffee drop

4. pacific northwest winter wonderland

5. wisdom tooth ache

6. crystal liaisons

7. old records, old needle, old pop; new music

8. double negation of post-post modern

9. endless trip/portals may not have exit signs

10. put your hands to sleep

awkward limbs and bad skins are just some of the problems of second adolescence.

hedonism paused

2009-02-09T15:29:00.000-08:00

gasping for air top ten:

1. poor drainage

2. when i jump to conclusions, jump with me

3. decorate your mid century furniture with mid century thinkers

4. scarcity of intellect, scary intellectuals

5. drop out (turn off, tune out)

6. no money for money for money for money

7. slight, slim, beard

8. can snot come out of yr eye?

9. cute 1, cute 2, cute 3 ("i don't know why i make these images.")

10. swollen shut, face goes numb

(11. goddess head, drowned in your liquidz)

"carbunkle's are as serious as any infection."

speed of darkness

2009-02-06T00:04:00.000-08:00

blanketed top ten-
1. valid but weak
2. skunkhead on the street
3. derrida was right
4. "adderol proven to increase cognitive function but..."
5. he dances, too?
6. olympus is in the center
7. your satellite is a nuclear warhead
8. can i have a handjob
9. warhead proven to have direct cognitive relationship with handjob
10. put out yr feelers

ba-baby, have you seen it?

propaganda of anti-materialism

2008-11-27T01:38:00.000-08:00

indigo && yellow chakra top ten:

1.beam, beam, beam, beam

2. "taking advil for a pinched nerve"
3. smiling to feel how it feels to smile
4. rememberbeherenow
5. send out light, get back light
6. is it okay to not be okay?
7. hi
8. elbows bent/torso reclined at the waist
9. spirit orbs of charcoal
10. idle hands make idle hands make idle hands

you shouldn't be real, culture consumed.

the next step after a great leap

2008-11-26T00:28:00.000-08:00

is-it-extreeeme top ten:

1. venn diagram, braided paths
2. "this desk is perfect"
3. too eaxt coaxt to get along
4. abrasive means interesting means inorganic means creative
5. the hole that your wallet made in your backpocket
6. frozen fingers/bound brain
7. "your drums make me feel like i'm on mushrooms"
8. pink eye
9. why can't i leave can't i leave can't i leave?
10. masochistic questions (are you with her everyday? does her family love you? would you leave me for her? do you miss me at all?)

i can feel the hairs growing out of my skin.

containment of self-contamination

2008-11-25T08:31:00.000-08:00

sifting through thee top ten:

1. snowshoes, mountains, douglas fir
2. a lover's discourse, over and over
3. pink reason on repeat, lying on the floor/staring at the ceiling
4. nauseous all day
5. can i make you a tape, can i write you a letter, can i move into your bed
6. quilts
7. uncontrollable imagination, uncontrollable negative energy
8. blurry, crusty, bleary third eye
9.radical sabbatical
10. bedroom as physical manifestation of metaphysical emotional status

forgettoremembertoremembertoforget

re-framing//reef framing

2008-11-18T00:20:00.000-08:00

it's the difference between what is unconsciously conjured, what you tell yourself, and what you perform.
i can tell myself all of the things that i wished that i believed but the truth bubbles out.
i am supposed to doing my homework. i am always supposed to be doing my homework.
i am always doing my homework.
all of those statements are true because i spend such a large amount of my time thinking about my homework and trying to do my homework that i am completely devoted. there is nothing else.
yet there is no product.
in my head, i can see what i could do and what i should do and what i would do.
but there is nothing done.

greg sweats. in every class, he is glistening. his hair always looks wet. while he lectures, i stare at the area on his crown where the light reflects back. i'm not sure when i became so obsessed with him being covered in his own salty dew. that's not true.
it was an "i saw u" in the stranger. from a student to a professor at seattle central. it said, "greg, can't get your sweaty balls out of my mind. do you ride your bike to work everyday? i wish i could smell them."
sometimes, in class, i visualize those three lines and try to make sense of whether it was facetious or genuine. either is plausible. but there are so many questions.
what student?
how many people named greg teach at sccc?
does greg ride his bike?
had she seen his balls or did she just imagine what they might look/smell like post-bicycle-commute?
does the fact that i think about this a lot mean that i, also, cannot get greg's patterns of perspiration out of my mind?

i don't know. i can't learn. there is no learning. things are absorbed but they fall and drown in an abyss. i am over-stimulated to the point of everythingness. is that right? black is the presence of all color? therefore the black/bleakness of my own visualization of my mind is due to total saturation.
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